Monday, June 27, 2011

Being a Friend!

Am I a true friend???  I really hope so because i am always trying my best to be there for my friends when they need me when they need to talk make them see how amazing they truly are when they dont feel amazing!!!  I don my best to go out of my way to make others happy! i  guess sometimes im not good enough!!   am I a true friend?

Whats a true friend?
im not really sure anymore!!!!!
 To me There the friends who love you NO matter what you do wrong! the freinds who are always there for you and are always showing they love you the ones to be there to listen when you need to talk the ones who will always want you around not when its you the only person left!!!
to me i feel like i dont have a BEST friend anymore!!!!!
i am now second third or forth in line..... I dont want to be forth in line i want someone to pick me first and want to hang out with me before they run out of options!!!
why am i not good enough what can i do to be better?
Anyone???????

Saturday, June 18, 2011

CHANGE!

Wow its been a while sense i posted last!!! :)

Well so much has been going on for me!! so many things and right  now it seems everything is changing and when i say everything i mean everything nothing is the same!!! my friends my family and honestly i am NOT liking the changes at all!!! i don't like not having any friends because they are with there boyfriends i don't like having both my brothers gone!!  i don't like missing all my friends that i love and NEVER see anymore!!! Change is  the only constant!  and that is a bummer sometimes !! i dont like were things are at right now and i really hope they get better!!! but there are some people who have made all this CRAP berrible and its COURTNEY LYN HAMILTON ... and .... EMILY GEORGE!!!!!!!! i am so grateful for them and what friends they have been for to me!!!!! i just LOVE talking and hanging out with these girls!
i am really hoping things get better cause i am done sitting at home!! there are changes that  need to be made in my life!! isnt that ironic! ha ha  but sometimes its just good to get your thoughts out of your head!!